Blogging the binge

Guess I was feeling sorry for myself today. Aunt Flo is visiting and even though I'm on a ton of pain killers I still have cramps. I didn't get good sleep. I was feeling pissy and cranky. So after fighting with myself I knocked back 17 fish sticks with a side of hummus and 4 skinny cow ice cream sandwiches. Of course non of it made me feel any better. But, DH is on his way home from work, so I think I'll get on the treadmill for a bit and walk off some frustration.

On a brighter note the muscle relaxers seem to be working on my jaw. It's closer to normal position. This makes me optimistic about the non-surgical treatment. With any luck, it will progress faster than the 3 months the doc said. A girl can hope.

How not to lose weight...

Last week I woke up with pain on the left side of my jaw. I've had clicking and it would catch when I open--that's been going on for years. The pain was new though, so I was a bit concerned. I then noticed it hurt too much to bring my teeth together on that side to chew. I'm a left side chewer wouldn't you know it? When I finally go to a mirror, normal people would have rushed to see what was up , not me. Anyway, I notice that my jaw has shifted markedly to the right. That solved the chewing mystery.

I had a dentist appt. later in the week so I decided to wait it out. My dentist took one look at me and said, "You need to see an oral surgeon." So, yesterday I went to the swankiest dentist office in the world. Not only do they extract teeth, they do lip plumping, brow lifts and botox injections. The good news is they're not going to do surgery right away. The bad news is I have to have a night guard made and I have to be on super high doses of anti-inflammatories and a muscle relaxant for 3 months. They hope that the jaw will slip back into proper position on its own.

This boils down to being on a soft/semi soft diet until the problem is correct...lucky, lucky me. The upside to the boring is that since I'm down to 278.8 as of this morning.

I'll take it :)

It's 2010, here I am again!!!

I have not given up on my weight loss. I just decided to take the super leisurely once around the park route. Well, once around the park stopping at every fast food and ice cream joint along the way.
So, what's been going on since April of last freakin' year? In May I started doing Medifast. Great plan, restrictive, but fast. I got down to 271. Then I hit the wall. I started straying off plan. I kept trying to recommit but no luck. In October, I lost a dear friend to cancer. She also struggled with her weight and had just achieved goal before she died. I spent another few months wallowing in my feelings for a woman that was a second mother to me. The holidays came and went with the eating and not paying attention to my health that goes with them.
Not all was doom and gloom. A couple of my friends are on a weight loss mission, so I've been walking with them occasionally. We've done a couple of hikes and some hill walks in their neighborhood as well as a few walks around a nearby reservoir.
I'm not quite sure what to file this little nugget under :). Earlier this year DH was told he was "fat" by his doc. He needed to lose about 30 pounds. He saw my initial success on Medifast so he decided to do that....He's almost to goal and is now a weight loss expert. My oldest is also doing a bizarre Medifast/Atkins hybrid and he's down about 35 pounds.....Yippee for them!!!! (Where's the eyeroll emoticon?)
So, what am I doing you ask? Well, I've given up Medifast for good in my head. I've gone back to Weight Watchers/calorie counting. I've convinced myself that one of the reasons I couldn't stick to Medifast was I couldn't deal with the cravings. I know that I could try, stick with it...blah blah blah. I threw in the towel, I was sick of swimming upstream.
And here I am, a few pounds lighter than when I last posted. I was 283.8 this morning. Not great, but not bad. Considering what I've been eating, it's pretty great. I'd like to say that I'll be diligent and post, but at best I'll say I'll try.